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All anyone truly has are their thoughts, and these are mine. I find it harder every day to believe in coincidence, so if you've found these writings, I encourage you to read on. Experience is a two-way street, and I'd appreciate hearing about yours. Love.

Wednesday 29 December 2010

What We Leave Behind: The Ones of Hide and Pelt

Preparation.
He had inquired.

Preparation
He fears.


Ignition
He had had his understanding of all that was, and the knowledge had steadied and
comforted him into acceptance of the possibly unknown.
Ignition
His amble is slouched yet hurried, as every foot forward pulls against the coat around his
 shoulders. It stretches into the dark depths of the mountain, it's end alight like a wick.
The tip is an ever present reminder of his future in which he has never come to terms.

A goat presents itself to his arrow. He hurriedly sews it's pelt into his collar. His process
 continues for years, as he climbs and sews from the ever present flame. His coat spirals
 around the huge body of earth. He treads step on the pinnacle of the mountain; all life in
his world exhausted.
Engulfment
The last of the small yet life-giving coat had been burning as the old lay near. An old hand 
gently reached out as a young hand had been lent. Old and young eyes had spoken and 
listened, as faint messages of meaning were exchanged. Seconds had passed, until old and
young eyes had closed and cried, as the last of the flames were extinguished.

The dawning sun had suggested an orange tinge to the short windswept grass upon the 
mountain. The breeze had displaced the ashes, charging them with the role of becoming a
part of the mountain. A small length of hide and a usable piece of pelt had been revealed. 
Young eyes smiled.
Engulfment
Old hands grasp, 
no hands extend. 
Old eyes plead, 
no eyes listen. 
Old eyes close, 
no eyes cry.

Tuesday 21 December 2010

My Mirror



I wrote this down with intentions of expanding on it. When revisited, it felt right the way it had been drafted.


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I caught a falling leaf today.
I took it to another place far from where it should have landed. 
Was it hoping for me to catch it?
I left it next to an intersection.
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On an uncharacteristically wet and overcast afternoon, I was driving down a winding Balinese road lined with orchid farms. A leaf had started floating from the overhanging tunnel of foliage. It wrapped itself around my bike mirror, forcing its existence known. It stayed there, flailing as my bike charged through the lazy air.


In retrospect, I feel sorry for the leaf.


At the time, I had the feeling that I was taking it on an adventure. I felt that without my intervention, the leaf would have suffered the same fate as the rest of it's branch. Of all the others, It had chosen me, and I had chosen it, to take it as far away as I could. It wanted something different. 


My power over it's destiny made me feel that what I was doing, was what was best.


I didn't ask the leaf though.

Friday 17 December 2010

I have some questions


Every option yours and everyone else's 'self' has ever decided upon, and all events all  have experienced through 'fortune' -from a moment ago, to birth, to millennia prior, and further- have led you to become who and where you are at this very moment... And it has brought you to the point in which you are taking the time to read this! What an unbelievable chain of events.

Will what is written here affect your future (decisions)? Will it affect others'? Has your sub-conscious treated itself to something written here without your knowing, contributing to your new, ever changing self? 

Will what is written be thatched over to the point of 'non-existence'? Will it become a flicker in your future recognition?

This next question is not keyed in an epistemological context. When you experience anything, do you really experience it? Is appreciation present? Will it be in the future?

Is it fate that has you written reading this post? Or is it solely coincidence you chancing to stumble across this?

... Will you read this again to try and get a better understanding?

What will your next action be? Is it already decided? Or, is it going to affect this unimaginable link of happenings further? 
Does logic give us no hope of a choice?  Or, will taking your next breath change the universe?

Thursday 16 December 2010

I can't hear you!

Wondering on the reasons, I begin the tales of Mud with unnecessary reluctance.
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A poem.

My name provokes rest and restlessness,
but I am heard by none.
My scream is said to be deafeningly peaceful,
but I am heard by none.
My name is feared yet craved,
but I am unknown.
My name does no justice to my being.
I am not.




One of my greatest fears was being trapped, and alone. I tried to imagine what it would be like completely alone in a pitch black room. What I would see. What I would hear. What I would feel. 

What I would see excited me! Anything that excited my visual sense has always been appreciated. As for hearing, I immediately thought of the sound of silence. Contemplating the word's meaning, I realized that our concept of silence 'does no justice' to it's literal meaning.

On this thought, I realized that I was still not alone. The sound would accompany me even if the place I was trapped in had a one hundred thousand kilometer radius. No matter where I was located, the screaming sound would be there. Is this what sparked the fear in my chest?  Was my own understanding of what I was afraid of clouded by a misunderstanding of a word? Was I more scared of being trapped with something, than being trapped alone?

I think on the basic impossibility that no human will ever know silence, ever. After this realization, I am enticed by the experience of true silence. To not hear the sound of those high pitched rings would please me; like music to my ears.

But how to experience this?

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